PROCESS OF LOVE：（爱情的历程）
It begins when the object of your affection bestows upon you a heady hellucinogenic dose of something you have never even dared to admit you wanted an emotional speed-ball of thunderous love and excitement. As soon you start craving that attention with the hungry obsesion of any junkie.When it's withheld, you turn sick; crazy, not to mention resentful of the dealer who encouraged this addiction in the first place, but now refuses to pony up the good stuff.Goddamn him, he used to give it to you for free.Next stage finds you skinny, shaking in a cornet certain only that you'd sell your soul just to have that one thing one more timel; meatwhile the object of your adoration is now repulsed by you.He looks at you like someone he's never met before.The irony is you can hardly blame him, I mean, check yourself out. You are a mess.Unrecognizble even to your own eyes.You have now reached infatuation's final destination,and the complete and merciless devluation of self.
Liz,having a baby is like getting a tattoo on your face
Liz: It's unnerving when...a total stranger sees you more clearly than
you see yourself.
The only thing more impossible than staying, was leaving.
I thank God for fear, because for the first time I'm afraid the person
next to me will be the onewho wants to leave.
I know this is awful.But I believe with every molecule of my body that
you will find the person that wants just what you want.That will give
you what you want and what you deserve,I'm not her.
Let me ask you a question.In all the years you've ever undressed in
front of agentleman.... has he ever asked you to leave? Has he ever
walked out? Left?-NO.Because he doesn't care. He's in a room with a
naked girl. He's won the lottery. I'm so tired of saying no and then
waking up in the morning...and recalling every single thing I ate the
day before. Counting every calorieso l know exactly...how much
self-loathing to take into the shower. I'm going for it. I have no
interest in being obese. I'm just through with the guilt. This is what
I'm gonna do. I'm gonna finish this pizza...and then we're gonna go
watch the soccer game. And tomorrow we're gonna go on a little
date...and buy ourselves some bigger jeans.
“What if we just acknowledge that we have a screwed-up
relationship...andwe stick it out anyway? We accept that we fight a
lot...and we hardly have sexanymore...but that we don't wanna live
without each other. And that way we can spend our lives
together...miserable...but happy not to be apart.”
"Dear David, we haven't had any communication in a while... and it's
give me time I needed to think. Remember when you said we should live
with each other and be unhappy... so we could be happy? Consider it a
testimony to how much I love you... that I spent so long pouring myself
into that offer... trying to make it work. But a friend took me to the
most amazing place the other day. It's called the Augusteum. Octavian
Augustus built it to house his remains. When the barbarians came, they
trashed it along with everything else. The great Augusteum, Rome's first
true great emperor, how could he have imagined that Rome, the whole
world, as far as he was concerned, would one day be in ruins?
(During the Dark Ages,someone came in here and stole the emperor's ashes.In the 12th century ,it became a fortress for the Colonna family...than a bullring.They stored fireworks in here after that.Nowadays,it's used as a bathroom for the homeless people.)
It's one of the quietest and loneliest places in Rome. The city has grown up around it over centuries. It feels like a precious wound like a heartbreak you won't let go of , because it hurts too good. We all want things to stay the same, David. Settle for living in misery because we're afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. Then I looked around in this place, at the chaos it's endured, the way it's been adapted, burned, pillaged, then found a way to build itself back up again, and I was reassured. Maybe my life hasn't been so chaotic, It's just the world that is, and the only real trap is getting attached to any of it. Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation.
Even in this eternal city, the Augustus shows that we must always be prepared for endless waves of transformation. Both of us deserve better that staying together, because we're afraid we'll be destroyed if we don't."
“亲爱的大卫，我们好久没联系了，这让我有时间思考。记不记得你说我们应该悲惨地一起生活，这样就能幸福了。把它当作一种我爱你的誓言，我花了很长时间投入想让誓言实现。有一天 一个朋友带我去了世界上最神奇的地方叫奥古斯顿。奥古斯都大帝建了它来收藏遗迹。野蛮人来了 ，他们摧毁了一切，包括奥古斯顿，伟大的奥古斯都。罗马第一个真正的皇帝，他怎么能想象 罗马和他所知道的全世界，有一天会成为断壁残垣。
这里是罗马最安静 最寂寥的地方之一，城市已经在它周围成长了几个世纪，它就像一个珍贵的伤口，像你不会放弃的心碎，因为它伤得太完美了。安于活得悲惨，是因为我们害怕改变，害怕事物变成废墟 。我环顾这里 看它经受的这些混乱，这些改造 焚烧 掠夺，然后又找到了重新塑造自己的方式，然后我就释然了，也许我的生活还没有那么糟糕，世界就是这个样子而已，需要小心的 只是逃脱这种生活的念头。毁灭是种礼物，毁灭是通向变化的路途。
What is it you have trouble with?-Everything.
I get thses insame anxieties about everything in my life...and I've lost my place.
"You have to learn to select your thoughts the same way you select your
clothes every day. Now, that's a power that you can cultivate. If you
want to control your life so bad work on the mind. And that's the only
thing you should be trying to control. Drop everything else but that.
Cause if you can't master your thoughts, you're in trouble forever.
[I'm trying.] That's the damn problem. Stop trying, surrender. Go out
into the garden and just sit there. And still your mind and watch what
happens. Why don't you just let it be?"
Her: "Did you get my email?"
Him: "Yeah. I'm sorry I didn't call sooner."
Her: "Why didn't you?"
Him: "Cause if I did respond we were still having a conversation. I was still in it.."
Her: "I am sorry. We were... just bad timing."
Him: "I just wanted things to be easy. We were good when things were easy."
Her: "It's not that I need easy right now, I just can't have so hard."
Him: "Well, you sound good, stronger."
Her: "So do you."
"I know you feel awful，But you life's changing，That's not a bad
thing，And you're in the perfect place for it.Surrounded by grace."
"I thought I was over him,but...I love him."
"Big deal.So you fell in love with someone."
"I really miss him."
"So miss him.Send him some light and love every time you think of him,then drop it.You know,if you could clear out all that space in your mind that you're using to obsess over this guy and your failed marriage,you'd have a vacuum with a doorway.And you know what the universe would do with that doorway?Rush in.God would rush in.Fill you with more love than you ever dreamed of...Man!"
I think you have the capacity someday to love the whole world.
“I did love you ,Stephen.”
“I know,But I still love you”
“So love me ”
“But I miss you ”
“So miss me，Send me love and light every time you think of me...then drop it .It won't last forever.Nothing does.”
Rule of quest physics：（寻求物理学）
In the end, I’ve come to believe in something I call “The Physics of the Quest.” A force in nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity. The rule of Quest Physics goes something like this: If you’re brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue, and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you. I can’t help but believe it, given by my experience. I decided on my word. It means: “Let’s cross over.”
Somethmes to lose balance for love is part of living balanced life.